Trust is a hard thing, at least for me as an adult. I see my boys and the ultimate trust they have in people. They 100% trust that daddy will catch them, mommy will make it better, adults in their life will protect them, and their friends have no ill intentions even when they are mean sometimes. As you grow and have life experiences where people let you down, hurt your feelings, are mean, and don’t protect you it becomes harder to trust so easily.
We often talk about childlike faith but I keep thinking more along the lines of childlike trust. The dictionary defines faith as
complete trust or confidence in someone or something.
Trust is defined as
reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something b : one in which confidence is placed
These definitions are very similar. So bear with me a moment as I am not trying to give a deep theological sermon or vocabulary lesson. I’m trying to reference the fact that for myself my lack of trust deeply impacts the faith I have in my Lord and Savior. Basically until I completely trust Him I can’t really say, “oh I have faith in God.” Trust and faith are one and the same. They go hand in hand.
The song Oceans (Where My Feet May Fail) by Hilsong United hits really close to home.
Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now
So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
Though people have failed me, my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ has never failed me. He calls on me to trust Him with my heart, mind, soul, and strength. He wants me to follow Him in faith…..I just have to be willing to go. For a control freak who is not quick to trust this is hard. I want to know where I’m headed and what it will look like and what I will have to give up to get there. I often struggle with the fear that what I will be asked to give up is more than I can bear. My fear and need to be in control oftentimes get in my way because though I am able I am not willing to let Him take me deeper and beyond the borders I can see and am comfortable with.
So I end today with a prayer that the Lord will help me to relinquish the driver’s seat, give Him the wheel, and trust that what He has in store for me may be beyond the borders but is also better than I could have ever imagined.